Monday, 5 December 2011

Time for a new Blog !

Well a lots has happen to me since the last time I have blogged.  I now have a publishing deal, with a signed contract and my book 'Down The Plughole' a collection of sixteen poems for children is coming out in Feb/March 2012.

I have a Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/pages/Down-The-Plughole/100763036683095  so check it out for up to date current news.

I try to manage my M.E. as best as I can by pacing each day as it comes.  I am now taking tablets to help with my numb hand but this is due to my spondylosis in my neck.

Some days I am so excited about the book I could burst.  Dreams can come true.  Please also check out my You Tube video which helped me to get my publishing deal.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpurx3fRGO8

I will be starting a new blog just for my writing.  I have been on a great journey and it has been a rollercoaster of emotions.  I am sure there will be many more to come.  I have met some wonderful people through having M.E. and would not have been able to make my dream come true of being a published writer without being ill and getting this illness, but I hope it shows that good can prevail and life can just open new doors to go through.
Please join my on my new journey onwards.

Thursday, 7 April 2011

Even famous people get M.E.

I briefly read somewhere that Michael crawford had been diagnosed with M.E.  I found an article on the internet to confirm it.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1347273/Michael-Crawford-long-awaited-return-stage.html



I hope this clarifys to some people that do not believe in the illness that a such well known and well loved T.V. family favourite could not be making something like this up. They always say lazy people do not get M.E. and this is a typical example of how someone who pushed their body to the limit sucummed to the illness.  I do hope he will join major charities to support funding into research.  This is the way forward for the future to stop this illness becoming somewhat of an epidemic with the stressfull world we have in now. 

I am glad to have emerged from my cold damp cave of a house into spring with warm air and sunny days.  it definately makes me feel much better. 

I am starting to write a song called 'Hiding from the Sun'  which will be hopefully sung at my local Support Groups fundraising day on the 5th June.  If anyone would like to help then please contact me with your ideas. 

I now live in a household with a cat and a dog, this is inspiring my writing and I started a new picture book for children recently.  It will be called 'I just want to be friends'.  I also have created my own website for my writing, which is very exciting http://www.fiona-murphy.co.uk/ Take a look, even though I have many health problems I still want to achieve something, even though some days it's an immense struggle. 

I have been kindly given a TENS machine to help me manage my pain.  This is mainly for my back problem, but I was asked by a friend who has M.E. if it would work for him.  It has reduced, taking painkillers by about 40% so that has got to be an impressive result.  If you can afford to buy one yourself and you experience muscle pains, one nasty smptom of M.E. then go for it it definatley works.

Enough of talking about myself, back to the writing.

Friday, 25 February 2011

Confusing times

I have been sent some information about conflicting research done.  I find it all a bit confusing, but then I do have M.E.  I know for a fact that my own health has improved by pacing and resting.  Learning more about the illness and avoiding situations that will make it worse.  This is sometimes very hard to put into practice.  I find it hard to explain to my friends and family that background noise and a lot of talking give me 'Brain Fog',  its like my brain cannot cope and goes into foggy mode.  It's very annoying and extremely hard for other people to comprehend.

 I am continuing to write, all be it very slowly.  Criticism is always hard to take as it is now one of the only things left I can achieve as a career.  My best friend says I am too hard on myself and I should do it as a hobby and not put pressure on myself to get things published.  I am determined though to not let life pass me by without achieving something worthwhile.  When I meet new people now, I tell them straight away what my health problems are to get it out of the way.  This make things much easier for me to deal with.  The future is uncertain but each day brings a new challenge.

http://www.mefreeforall.org/index.php?id=2694#c10317

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Is it Just M.E. (Myeligic Encephalomyeltis)?: M.E. sufferers cannot give blood.

Is it Just M.E. (Myeligic Encephalomyeltis)?: M.E. sufferers cannot give blood.: "It's great news, in the world of M.E. It was decided on November 1st 2010 that sufferers now cannot give blood. I for one do not think a..."

M.E. sufferers cannot give blood.

It's great news,  in the world of M.E.  It was decided on November 1st  2010 that sufferers now cannot give blood.  I for one do not think anyone would want my blood anyway, considering the health problems I have, but it is reassuring news that the condition is being given the serious research it needs.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/health/healthnews/8050655/ME-patients-banned-from-giving-blood.html

This is fantastic news, scientists and doctors are waking up to the fact it is not 'all in your mind'.  I know it's not, but some people still do not believe this.  So to them I say read the article and its even in the Telegraph.

Saturday, 9 October 2010

Action for M.E conference

Work, welfare benefits and M.E. - is anyone listening?

Saturday the 25th of September and I attended a conference held by Action for M.E.

I am extremely lucky to have a sister who lives in London in Woodford.  So after a short tube ride from Woodford to Liverpool Street station,  I emerged from the station and started my search for the Allen & Overy building. Walking towards Brushfield street, clutching my map in one hand and having my trusty walking stick in the other.  Someone spotted me, looking at my map and he asked me if I was going to the conference, so we found our way together to the most fabulous building I have ever been in.  We were guided to the escalators down to the basement where the conference was being held.  I was given a badge with my name on and I looked around.  There were boards and computers laid out with research and information on, but my brain could not cope with the information, so I bypassed these and heading over to the refreshments area.  It is there that I fell in love.  Gluten free biscuits, with load of different varieties to try.  It is quite hard to balance a cup of tea and biscuits, whilst using a walking stick but I was determined to.  So glad I did though, my biscuit addiction returned, they were heavenly.

Biscuits aside I made my way into the conference hall and joined Justin and Midge Mitchell both from the Dorset M.E. support group. It was a large room with large windows, letting in as much light as possible, and there were about 15 round tables with seating around.  As everyone made there way into the conference room it became apparent that at each table there was one reserved seat.  This was due to the fact that each table had one member of the University of East Anglia team sitting in it.

From my own personal view the conference had two halves.  The first was about Benefits, two people gave their own experiences of M.E. and claiming benefits.  The second half was about the research that the University of East Anglia is doing and results from the Lottery funded National M.E./CFS Observatory.

I won't go into too much detail of all the speakers etc as this will all be on Action for M.E's website as it was being filmed.  I just want all the people with M.E. who could not make it to the conference to know what it was all about.

The first half started  with an introduction by the superbly suave Peter Spencer the current Chief Executive.  Next were two sufferers telling their own personal stories about how they got M.E. and how they had manged to navigate their way through the benefits system.  Then followed Daniel Groves from the Department of Works and Pensions and Neil Coyne from the national Disability Alliance organisation.  They made their speeches and then followed a question and answer section.  I found all of this very emotional and know that even if I had been brave enough to ask a question  I would have just burst in to tears.  I have come a long way in the last few years and fight really hard to make people aware of how horrible this illness is, listening to their predictions for the future brought back all the bad things that have happened and the thougth of having medicals every six months is gut wrenching.  They did get an extremely intense grilling and it was difficult to listen to at times.

After a long awaited break. I had tried hard not to close my eyes and put my head on the table, but I did have to stand for a while, as my back was not happy in sitting for so long.  More biscuits and a cup of delightful camomile tea.  A visit to the poshest loos I have ever been in.  I was interested to hear more.

The University of East Anglia were up speaking next with some very interesting facts and research.  We then had a group discussion on each of our tables on how we could improve things for people with M.E.  These ideas were all written down on large post it notes and stuck all together in the refreshments area.  I know from our discussion, the top point was making more people, ie the general public aware of what the illness is and what it is like for someone to have it.

Next session and Luis Nacul of the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine showed us his research and his studies showed that there could be a possible 10,000 new cases per year.

Finally when I was completely worn out, a cloud lifted and a rainbow came into view with a pot of gold at the end.  The man that manged to achieve this was Professor Derek Pheby the project Co-ordinator for the disease register.  The future plans were to have a tissue sample bank and try to get M.E. classed as a Neurodegenerative disease, proving that's where it belongs.

Wow what a day of emotions.  I was really glad to be able to attend and it has taken me a while to recover.
You will be able to see the film shortly of the conference I hope on http://www.afme.org.uk/

It was superbly managed and I would like to thank the people who organised it.  It has given me hope for the future.  Also big thumbs up to the chef who made the wonderful Gluten free biscuits, I have to admit I had quite a few!

Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Love Hearts

Here is a poem that I wrote today I hope you like it.


Love Hearts
The Key to my heart
Stays close and safe
My head telling me
Not to fall for a handsome face
It skips a beat 
When you walk on by
Unlock it safely
Or it may die!

                                                               Copywrite Fiona Murphy 2010